I don't know what I've been so afraid of all this time, I kept trying to bottle everything up and restricted myself from everything I've ever wanted to be bound to. As of late, I've made lots of crazy decisions the old self wouldn't have even thought of! I realize I'm sounding kind of crazy but I'm so incredibly happy in this moment, even if it meant I had some slip ups in the past and might have put someone else's happiness on the line for my own. I realize it may be incredibly selfish of myself to have let certain things happen in the past and for that, I'm genuinely sorry. However, I honestly believe everything will be fine. Anyway! Sorry for that random confusing rant. I just kind of wanted to get that off of my chest. As I said before, I've made some decisions this month; it may not be "crazy" for others but they are for me. Hehe.
I finally made my mind up and I'll be in California this Spring, which is something I'm super incredibly happy about, I'm like bouncing off the walls as I type this! I don't know how I'll be able to last until then, to be honest. I just know that I'll be full of love and well, amazing food too. I haven't really gotten the chance to really travel, especially on my own so this is also kind of nervewrecking for me as well. Oh my god, what to do, what to do. I guess it's time to do some research on Google. I'll probably update you guys with how I prep for things like this in the future haha.
